The next 48 hrs!

I am such a bad blogger...but I read others and love it! I have to say that I have been obsessively praying for us and the others this week and last week to pass court that I honestly wake up a half a dozen times in the middle of the night and immediately pray for however it is I know is in court! A bit insane I know. Really how do I know even in a dead sleep? Well because I am racing so much in my sleep...it's ridiculous. I can barley function during the day to get my work done and I have NEVER been so busy! My concentration is shot and I am all over the place in my mind it's crazy. I have started packing to relieve some of that panic...looked at paperwork needed... and just pray and plead to everyone I know to pray as well. We need the uncle to show up and for MOWA to issue a positive opinion with no typo's and the judge to rule in our favor.

I have to say that I am soo anxious to pass to get there and bring him home so that I can stop feeling guilty about being with my son and so stressed that I have to force myself to stay present with him and enjoy him and not let my mind wonder. But I think of our next son every 30 to 60 seconds so that's very hard. I have to say that my husband and I have been spending so much quality time with Jared that it's been wonderful. We went to the Miami Zoo over the weekend which is one of our favorite family things to do. Without Jared I don't know how I would get through this process!! He just had graduation from pre K and is such a big boy all of a sudden it's amazing. He talks about his brother everyday and couldn't be more excited!

I had an amazing update and photo today from a wonderful family that just got back with their child. Can I tell you the tears just started flowing as soon as I saw his beautiful picture. He was so lit up...he has the most amazing smiles in all his pictures....takes my breath away! One family gave me a 4 second video a few weeks ago that I could watch all day. And another gave me a photo of him when he first got to the foster care center. These have meant so much to me I can't even tell you. I am so touched by the others families during this time that I can't wait to return the favor!! So be watching for when we pass Thursday because I want to do the same for as many others as possible!!